Genesis Of The Outcast
Oil on canvas, 18w" x 37h", 2003
From a private collection
|Notes: As a child I grew up in an environment which was very emotionally supressive. I realized on an instinctual level that I had to escape my confusing and chaotic surroundings some way. My escape was individuation. The message I got from my psyche was that I absolutely had to be different from everybody else or I would be in danger. Other factors as well contorted my personality. But, it is too complicated to go into here. I am compulsively different from other people. An outcast. I had a dream which had a creature that was mostly geometric shaped with no expressions and moved very quickly. It was running away from a prison. I realized it was the Genesis Of The Outcast. It was the moment at which my emotions switched off for purposes of self-preservation and my powerful creative nature was directed toward amplified individuation and isolation from other people. Here in this painting I have depicted parts of that dream.